I struggle for you in the gray,
O LORD my God and my Creator,
O Longing of my heart.
Give me a bright blue day
and I can see your cloud!
Even the dead of night
and I can find your fire!
But the gray…
Grant me patience and creativity
for sensing you amidst the chilly rains
of a colorless day.
I miss you, I need you here…
Until the gray gives way to life
I will retell your stories
and remind myself of past God-sightings:
I will pray with a homesick Rachel
and wait with a barren Elizabeth
and watch with a faithful Rahab
For you, O Desire of my Heart.