We cannot
(I cannot)
face this day
without your help.
There is too much
suffering, too much
violence, too much
pain unanswered,
too much chaos,
too much, far
too much
like the earliest
days of creation
when all was
disarray,
tumult,
and God
had to create
space and order
just so that life could
gasp into being without
accidentally gulping in
water instead of
fresh air. But
even with
Day and
Night,
Sun and
Moon and Earth
set each in its place
to give order to this life,
even so, we choose
chaos. God gave
wholeness,
God created
life blessing life
but we prefer the
violence of breaking
and the self-defining thrill
of life cursing life.
It is too much.
Too much.
I would rather hide.
Close my ears.
Close the
door.
Curl up and
watch TV reruns.
Let me hear a whisper
of the joyful tune sung by
the Earth and Moon and Sun
of their deep satisfaction in being,
their love of partnering through the heavens
for the sake of Day and Night and Oceans
and Stars and Seasons and All Life.
They harmonize for
life while we
rage
for life.
I cannot
keep raging
nor keep racing
to secure
my place in life.
(To be sure, I likely
will and I will return to
this prayer in confession.)
But today I step in faith
trusting that we were
not created for
chaos. I was
not made
for chaos.
We were breathed
into being within the spaces
of harmony, within the cosmic song
that praises God’s faithfulness
and conducts each singer
in concerted blessing.
We were made
to join
the Sun
Moon, Stars,
Earth and Ocean
in exultant song!
Today, O God,
is too much
but you
YOU
are enough.
You are enough and I
am adequate to participate
in your wholeness,
your blessing.
Embolden me
— us —
to choose
enough.